I know I have to eventually make a decision about what to do with my cheating spouse and my marriage, but right now I am just trying not to think about it all. Unfortunately, it keeps popping up.
My husband and I still live in the same house. Deep down, I really want to be a nuclear family. I see how much it means to our kids, and I don’t want to hurt them (See post Cheating and kids for more details). I know that my cheating husband and I can’t live like this forever. My husband annoys the hell out of me sometimes and does things that piss me off. But I stay for the kids, and financially stability. I am also petrified at the thought of raising my two kids alone without family living close by. Maybe we can live as roommates under the same roof?
One of my girlfriends told me I have to make a choice and see if the “help” is worth the frustration. For instance, my husband tries to be affectionate at times, and I am not feeling it. It actually really angers me that he thinks we can just kiss and make up from his acts of adultery. My husband also tries to monitor my activities, because he thinks that I’m going to cheat on him. Every time I go somewhere, he makes an issue of it. Unbelievable!
Ladies, I know I cannot live like this forever. I feel like I am sacrificing myself for the kids and slowly killing myself in the process. I just wish I could wish it all away, but I can’t. I don’t know what to do right now, but I do know one thing for sure: Things will get better, I will get stronger, and I will recover.