Today was a great day for me. For years, I denied myself. I denied myself of getting new clothes. I denied myself of going out with friends. I denied myself of watching tv, having fun, doing what I like doing, not what everyone else likes doing. And today, I feel I am getting to the point where I am becoming liberated. Liberated from everyone’s else’s viewpoint of what I should do and how I should do it. After my husband cheated, I learned something so important, and that is, the only person that is going to look out for you is you. Your husband is looking out for him, and everyone else in this world is doing the same thing, expect you!! I decided that this can not happen anymore. It is about me in 2010, and what I want to do, what I need to do, and what I can do to make me happy. I always thought I was selfish in thinking this way, now I realize that being selfish is good. It gives you love and reserves so that you can love others more fully. So when people ask me to do something I don’t want to do, I tell them no (especially my cheating husband…lol). Not to be mean, because I have to get to the point where I make decisions based off of me first, not everyone else. Of course, I have a long ways to go, I take each day at a time. Today I went shopping, just for me. That rarely happens, and I always feel guilty because I have bills, kids, ect to look after. But ironically, after being selfish and shopping for me, I came home a better mother, a happier mother, because I took care of myself first. I am just breaking the tip of the iceberg in this new found me, but so far I LOVE it!! My hope is that anyone that is reading this will find themselves at this point as well. Best of luck.
Jewels!!
Hello kc,
You seem to be in a tough situation. Be very careful with abusive men, seriously. Cheating is one thing. Abuse can become dangerous to your health. I really hope your in a position to get some support in this situation for you and your son. I will be thinking about you. Be safe above all.
-Jewels
8:43 AM
i admit i wasnt truthful, whn the abuse atarted for me and my son, i didnt know exactly what to do? of course, it sed was sorry? but, when a man calls you “CUNT,WHORE, SLUT” all the time n is f***ing that same kind of woman…makes you want to eliminate. it will occur the drawing line hads become even, oh well. and the major biutton was pushed. oh well..has sum1 has sed over n over…smile the world will smile back!